Thoughts about my 22nd birthday 🎂

I am officially 22 years old! Actually I am 22 years and 5 days old. How do I feel about it? Well, it is weird and a bit scary getting older and older. However, I can guarantee that wisdom does come as you get older. 


To be more precise, in my case at least, it is not so much wisdom as determination. 2019 is going to be an important year for me as if everything goes as planned, I will get my bachelor degree and I'll have to make up my mind about the next chapter in my life. And because I do aspire to do great things -based on my standards and dreams- I know that I need to pressure myself this year. I am a shy person who really cares about what people think and say about me. This is what kept me from actively participating in classes. But now things have changed. Yes, I am still very self-conscious but I force myself to raise my hand and share my thoughts. And although it is hard, it feels great afterwards. It is empowering to think that I can face my fears. Raising your hand and speaking aloud might sound like the easiest and the most natural thing to many people, but I feel vulnerable sharing my thoughts and the fact that I dare myself to feel that way and get out of my comfort zone is the reason that I am a stronger person than the one I used to be.

This determination follows me in my social life as well. First of all, I try to be more sociable either by going out with people that I am not so close with or by meeting new ones. This led me to start taking -additional to social relating- risks. Okay, it isn't anything wild but applying for various positions for work or exposing my thoughts and consequently myself to the internet -which equals the world- can be terrifying. However, I try to think that I have nothing to lose and I might miss a great lifetime experience if I don't try things that I know that I will like or that can benefit me somehow. So, I just go for it. That is the reason that my schedule has become a bit crazy as a lot of good things and great responsibilities have come from all the risks. But it is totally worth it. 

All in all, what I realised at my 22nd birthday is the importance of experiencing as many things as possible. I am extremely busy and tired most nights but at the end of the day I am glad to know that I try to become a better version of myself and to leave my mark on the world.


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