I'm Thinking of Reading a Book 💁🏻‍♀️

This post should have been written and posted six months ago; I turned 26 in March. However, I only now feel in the mood to sit down and seriously think about my goals and desires at this point in my life.

It's a bit difficult to provide an introduction for this blogpost because my birthday was on 6 March. As you can see from the day when this is posted, some months have pasted since then. Life has been tedious and eventful at the same time. Anyway, today you get a birthday book haul as it is never too late to commemorate the love you get from family and friends.  

This was the first time that I needed so much time to pass before I could talk about my birthday (my birthday was on 6 March). And to be honest, I am still not sure how to express my thoughts and emotions about my birthday this year. This is why I will keep this post short and sweet.  It might sound irrational, but I feel like I'm going through a quarter-life crisis. It's crazy because I recognise that I am still young and I stress myself for no reason. But what can I do when all I feel is pressure and stress about the lack of direction and motive that dominates my life? I know that I do not have an excuse not to know what I want to do in my life. On paper, I am an educated person with a job that I should adore. However, I am not happy. The sole things that give me pleasure is reading books and filming TikTok videos about them. Unfortunately, I cannot devote much time to these activities because I have to work in order to earn money to survive and   to buy  more books ....

Last Saturday, it was my birthday. In my 24 years of existence, this year was the first ever birthday to spend it all alone ( I'm abroad doing a Master's .)

DISCLAIMER: I wrote this post a week before my birthday but I decided to share it as these were truly my thoughts and feelings for my birthday this year and this post might help you reconsider the importance of birthdays as it happened to me while writing it.

I am officially 22 years old! Actually I am 22 years and 5 days old. How do I feel about it? Well, it is weird and a bit scary getting older and older. However, I can guarantee that wisdom does come as you get older. 

First of all, Happy Birthday to me 💁 Second of all, this is my second try writing this post. Yesterday afternoon I wrote a post as a draft saying how I am a year older now, and one thing that shows how mature I am becoming as the years go by is the fact that I am trying to think of the feelings of the people around me and not just myself. Well, by yesterday evening I managed to hurt a person I really care about.

A few weeks ago I turned 20. Yes, 20. I'm pretty sure that you just smiled and thought "Oh, I wish I were at your age!". Being young and having your whole future ahead is the greatest thing ever.  True, there is nothing better than youth. You are sponteneous and you can do anything you want. It doesn't matter where you are or what time it is. Anywhere and anytime you can do whatever your heart desires. You don't care about rules and you don't have responsibilities. You do, however, have to study for college or university but it is usually a kind of studying that you find interesting, as you learn about things that you chose to and they are associated with your interests and passions. Or you may be working. And it is a great feeling to know that you are independent and you can take care of yourself.